I think each one of us is entitled to rage a little every now and then. I know we all wish the world was all peaches and cream, but, frankly, it isn't. It just sucks when you realize that even more changes have to be made than you had originally planned. Over the last couple months my life has taken some drastic turns. The disappointments have outweighed the wins but I've kept myself going. I have learned to almost never get my hopes up. Trust must be given out reluctantly. Emotions can't be allowed to get in the way of decision making. You can't over think. I believe we should all think more because you should never act or react without all the facts.
Even though life is rough, I am ready to take the bull by the horns. I have this vision of the next five years and it has nothing to do with how my life is now. I am planning a 180 degree flip on my life. I feel it is the only thing left for me to do. I've pursued many avenues and ideas and none have paid off. The future, however, is bright and hopeful. I just believe that future is far from here. I've made all the wrong choices. It's time to start making the right ones. The right choices for me are not the right choices for others. That's why people come and go. Sadly, paths cross but don't always run side by side. We have to accept that. However, along may come someone that you want to have in your life, so you have to redirect your path to run alongside theirs. It's no ones fault but our own when we push others away. If we really want them to stay, we must make the effort. But sometimes they don't want us to stay and take their path away from ours. Nothing we can do about that.
If you want to be happy, be happy. It's up to us to make our own happiness. Even when life beats you down, you have the choice to be happy. I choose being happy. We should all choose to be happy. Some do not, however. My heart goes out to them.
I am done waiting and I'm moving on. I'm going to take life by storm and no one will recognize me when I'm done. Be happy.
T.
My mom just posted this on my wall: "I think that one of these days you're going to have to find out where you want to go. And then you've got to start going there"-J.D. Salinger. I've been a bit lost lately, so I guess she thought it was applicable...and it is. It sounds like you're in a similar place. Happiness is a good thing to aim for though. I hope you get it.
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