Monday, December 24, 2012

Week 12: Refocus.

Once again I greet you with another blog post.

Although it has only been a week since the last time that I wrote, it feels like I missed a week or something. It is, however, a special weekly post. Christmas is tomorrow. It has been two years since I have spent a Christmas at home with the family. For two years Christmas meant only being able to talk to them on the phone and later Skype. Many people I talked to found that to be cruel. Not being able to see my family on those special days... But I did it willingly for the same reason that Christmas even exists; for our Savior, Jesus Christ. Now i'm not going to talk about my religion, but I will say that thinking back to Christ is really what got me through the tough times and gets us through everyday.

I'd like to take this opportunity to give a shout out to Copper Hills High School whose students raised over $27,000 this December to provide Christmas for families in need. That, my friends, is what Christmas should be focused on. Black Friday, Cyber Monday, and all other commercialized Xmas gimmicks need to disappear. I, unfortunately, find myself caught up in the racket. Sometimes we need to just take a step back and think about others. Those that don't have. We whine and complain about our cushy lives while those around us struggle to make ends meet. Let's all make a goal to be more caring and considerate.

If this is your first time tuning into the blog, I try not to be this intense on a regular basis. I just like to write about thought provoking things. Things that keep me up at night.

Sometimes I wonder if people only read so that they can have something to hold against me or hang over my head in the future. If that is your intention, please don't. Haha.

Family hasn't been a big priority in my life over the past few months. I'm looking to change that. It's harder than you'd think though. To completely change your focus is one of life's big challenges. For example one who focuses on personal gain may have a hard time refocusing on selflessness. One that has a hard time putting family first may have a hard time sacrificing worldly things to open up family time. I remember family nights every Monday night without fail growing up. Even if we just took a few minutes to get together to go over each family members plans that week, I felt more, united. So here is my challenge to you: Find something you focus on in your life that you need to change, and then take the steps to refocus. If you are focused on commercial Christmas, Refocus on its true meaning.

Until the next (New Years Eve),

T

Sunday, December 16, 2012

Week 11: Confusion

Well, it's that time of the week again..

Overall my week has been a rather strange one.. I really don't know what to make of it. I'd like to say that it was a great week, but that wouldn't be true. I also can't say that it was a terrible week either. With highlights and lowlights, everything seemed to balance out to a 'meh' type of week. I look back, however and think about how I could have changed things, but my mind just comes up blank. I have high hopes for the coming weeks though. I am going to try and get stuff done. I feel like all the confusion in my life will begin to subside over the next few weeks. Not to mention that Christmas is included in the weeks coming events, which is just what I need right now. It has been a long time since I have really felt the Christmas spirit. I am really looking forward to immersing myself in all the simple holiday pleasantries to help the coming weeks be great and unforgettable.

I try really hard not to be boring. It's funny though, because I am more often than not, bored. I have all the time in the world, but no time to do anything. I am surprised that I have even been able to keep this blog going on such a regular basis. It's about the only thing people can count on from me these days. My one reliable quality it seems. Which reminds me, it was brought to my attention recently that I am considered by some to be unreliable. Therefore, I now make reliability to be this weeks goal. Maybe I'll make it a weekly thing in this blog; to decide attribute I am going to work on for the week. All in my efforts to better myself and be one step ahead at achieving who I know I want to become. If we want the world to be a better place, as we all know by now, we must start with ourselves.

Unfortunately, the world is a sad place. I'm sure everyone has heard of the recent tragedy in Connecticut. I don't want to dwell on it or really say too much, but it really has affected me this week. My prayers go out to everyone involved or affected by this senseless act.

A little advice (me included): If you want something, fight for it. Don't wait. Life and it's limited opportunities will pass you by. You are good enough. Things may not always work out how you'd like them to, but it does not mean you are a failure or that something is wrong with you. Love yourself for who you are. Know that you have great potential, and you, only you, can do what is necessary to reach it. If you have taken a risk lately, good for you. Many times that risk is all that's required to reach our goals. Be honest. Don't let people get the wrong idea. It's not fair to them or you. It may be hard to be straight up and tell the truth (believe me, I know) but it is always necessary.

Until next week.

T.

Monday, December 10, 2012

Week 10: Both Sides

Every story has two sides to it. On occasion, it'll have multiple sides. Therefore, we need to make sure to get our facts straight. Talk to people. Don't be afraid. Find out what's really going on. Life is too short to spend it confused. So clear the air. If things aren't how they seemed, change them or move on. There is no use in being sad about the past or angry or bitter etc. I honestly believe that dwelling on the past is a cop-out; a way to escape or avoid the inevitable future. I have wasted a lot of time on hind sight issues. Time to make the future I want.

There were a few things that I really wanted to talk about in this post, but I am really having a hard time putting them in words. Maybe it's because these things are frustrations that I've had over the past week and I know that it does no good to focus my life on my problems. But I must say that looking on the bright side is tough. When everything in your life seems like it just isn't quite what you dreamed it to be, you tend to focus on the bad. But once again I say, What about the good? I guarantee there is plenty of good in your life. That one thing that makes each day bearable. I've mentioned my family before, but now I will talk about my friends. They keep me going. I was blessed all through my life with friends that lift up and encourage and never drag me down. Sometimes I feel like I'm the dragger, but I really do thank them for all they've done for me.

Time is a funny thing. I seem to have none but too much of it at the same time. I know our lives can get hectic, but I am a FIRM believer that we really can and will make time for those or the things that truly matter to us. Being too busy is merely a state of mind. This isn't to say that we have time for EVERY thing; that's illogical. However, we will have time for the important ones. Call me crazy for thinking and believing that, but it's true.

Without giving too much of a peek into my personal life I will say that I'm not perfect. Nor do I expect to be. I'm quick to close my book sometimes. I consider that to be one of my major downfalls and the main thing that I am working. Don't close your book on me, I'm trying to be better. As I said last week, I know where I want to be in life and I plan to take all the necessary steps to achieve that goal. It's what's been taught to me for my entire life. It's crazy, after everything that has happened I always go back to the basics. That's what really matters.

Don't grow up too fast, but when it's time, it's time. Face life with courage and the knowledge that it goes on no matter what. Don't fight that currant.

Until next week.

T

Sunday, December 2, 2012

Week 9: Statements, truths and life changes.

Where to start?

Even though it feels like the weeks fly by extremely fast, the days are like years. I am amazed at how much can happen in one day. Today alone has had a weeks worth of experiences. It sure makes it easy to come up with things to blog about.

In a recent discussion with my mother, I came to realize that she is always right. I rarely admit it, but she and I both know it. I established some goals and figured out where I wanted to be with my life. Which leads me to my first topic: What's really important. I've been so caught up on the little things. I know what I want in the end. Now its time to take the steps to get there. Here is a truth, improvements are only made by constant striving and commitment. But only when you are ready. We all need time to decide what we want in life. I'm not saying that I'm some kind of guru and that I've got it all figured out. But I'm getting there.

I feel that randomness is also one of life's necessities. It's that bit of spontaneity that makes life bearable. It helps us get out of that rut we have the tendency to get stuck in. Its also what helps to create the uniqueness found in each one of us; what sets us apart from the rest of the world. I'm not trying to bash on routines. Those too, are necessary. All I ask is that we try not to get stuck. Don't let yourself turn into a drone. If you feel as if you are stuck in a rut, get out. Do something new. See something new. Try a new food. Take some photos. Live on the edge for a moment.

I've also been missing my mission a lot lately. Sure it was stressful at times, filled with disappointment, and tiring, but it also was soo rewarding. You only worried about one thing: what's most important. The distractions weren't there. I miss that.

Well folks, that's all for now.

Theories are easy to come by, but truth is hard to find.

Taylor.