I think it's been almost four months since I posted something on this blog. Maybe I was out of things to say, maybe I forgot it even existed, or perhaps it's because I just didn't care to share my thoughts with anyone else. I honestly don't even have the answer to my own question. All I can say is that I am back. At least for the time being.
I've always commented on and been amazed by the fact that one's life can change so quickly. For the last 1 and a half, almost two years, I've been a full-time employee focused entirely on earning money to buy all kinds of gizmos and gadgets. But last month something crazy happened. I quit my job and went to school. I'm now a 23 year old freshman in college and I couldn't be happier with my choice. In the long run I know that getting an education will benefit me far more than just jumping from job to job all my life. It was time to start building a career and put all of these ideas that have been swimming around in my mind into motion. Though I am only just beginning a long road, I can feel the good things coming. Patience.
I've been doing some reflecting lately (as usual) on the past two years. I noticed something alarming. As I thought about my relationships (all types) I realized that somehow I have managed to make more enemies than friends, even converting friends into enemies. I tried to think of ways that I could have salvaged friendships or prevented myself from making those enemies and my mind came up blank. This is because I stand by every decision I've made. We won't get anywhere in life by second guessing everything. Make a decision and stick with it. For better or worse. One the things that I can't stand is when people say they are going to do one thing and do the exact opposite. Or when they only tell you what you want to hear while in the back of their mind they have already made a decision ignoring all advice given to them. I frankly don't have time for people like this. Like I've said before, we need to remove the people from our lives that bring us down and hold us back from achieving the person we are supposed to be.
Remember: The difference between maturity and immaturity boils down to responsibility. If you can own up the consequences (good or bad) of your choices, then you have reached a level of maturity that is so prevalently lacking in today's society. Quit blaming others for your problems. Just deal with them. We weren't put on this earth to be brought down and be whiny babies. We were put here to have joy. To experience it. Not to endure it. Live each day to the fullest with an eye always on the future, for what we do today affects what we can do tomorrow. Find what gives you true joy (the kind that lasts forever) and hold on to it. If for some reason it slips from your grasp, don't waste your time beating yourself up about it. Get back on the horse and take it back. Own up to those mistakes and correct them.
That's all for now.
Live to find true joy.
T.
